Come Walk with Me

After months of struggling with a badly sprained ankle, last week I was just delighted to finally be able to get out and walk every single day! The sun was shining and the snow-capped mountains were spectacular, calling my name as I worked on the computer at home. So off I headed...

 ...I wasn't getting much work done anyway because my heart was so heavy. The day before I had gotten one of those phone calls that we all dread, telling me that the 2 year old son of my cousin had peacefully but tragically died in his sleep the night before. He was a healthy, happy, smiley little guy who was suddenly gone.

I admit that I was struggling with God....he was so small Lord? Why? I don't understand.....I imagined our own two year old granddaughters and could not fathom the incredible loss.  As I walked, God spoke to me through the songs that I listen every time on my walk...but today was different.

From Laura Story's, Blessings,

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricenter.com/e43998-laura_story~blessings_lyrics.html ]
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?
What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?
And what if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can't satisfy?
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?

As I kept on walking I couldn't help but marvel at the truth of her words. 'We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love, as if every promise from Your Word is not enough'. And that is exactly what I was doing. I was doubting God's goodness and His love when instead I needed to be reminded that He was enough! His promises were altogether true!

As I looked at the mountains again, I saw the fog in the valley below. I was walking above the fog both physically and spiritually! We will still grieve the loss of little Samuel Richard Klukas but we will also celebrate the reality that he is with Jesus now. I couldn't help but wonder if he was dancing with our own Avery and Sophie?