Learning to be still

It's been an interesting few months for me. A viral infection triggered a host of other complications that have resulted in literally weeks upon weeks of not feeling good and not being able to work at my normal energy levels. For someone who is a Type 'A' personality, always a 'Do-er' with long lists of things to do at any given time this has definitely been a downtime and I have had to be content with far less activities and accomplishments than normal for me.

To say it's been a challenge is a huge understatement as I have had to evaluate my worth not in terms of accomplishments but in terms of just being. I have had to learn to be still, to rest when needed, to take time to read when there wasn't energy to do anything more than that, and to be willing to admit that I really couldn't do more. It's meant that there have been floors unwashed, shirts not ironed,  blogs unwritten, phone calls and visits that were never made.

I have had to recognize again that  I can't be driven by what others expect of me, or even what I expect of me, but instead I need to only do what God asks me to do each and every day. It's just fine to say that I cannot do it. In fact it is exactly where He wants me to be. And along the way He has asked me to 'Be still, and know that I am God'.